Hey everyone. I hope you're all doing well!!
Have any of you really felt motivated to do something but then, you lose interest and become motivated for another thing, only to do the same thing again and again? I'm at this point right now.
It's really weird because as far back as I can remember, I've not had to worry about second guessing my writing. Even back when I was writing Sonic Fan Fiction and the like as a preteen girl with a lot to learn (Still have a lot to learn! XD) I never had a problem with wanting to create something, even if I wasn't all that good. I know that good is a subjective word when it comes to written work too, so it's all the more confusing for me because I think that creativity is not something to be measured and yet I keep doing it to my work. I might be rambling, that's mostly because I'm a little conflicted right now.
Writing a book used to motivate me itself, I would become passionate about something and I wouldn't let myself stop until it was done. I've done this with all the novels I've written, lacking a lot as they are, and I've been noticing a very troubling pattern after I finished book 10 and all the way to Book 13, and now the new ones. I have this bad habit of starting new novels and not finishing them and this is weird to me because I still love the little ones I started. I become frustrated with myself for this reason so when I go back to work on it, it comes out wrong. I've also been too impatient and it comes out in my writing. For that reason I've had to rewrite first chapters many times. Is this weird? I keep looking at my work and the worse is, I only become frustrated again as I can't help comparing ideas with others I've written.
I don't have this trouble with my Series, it's the closest thing to me that I have, it's still a little rough but I'm satisfied with it.
What's weird is that with the new ones, I love them but I see them all differently. I'm not sure if this is normal or weird and I know all stories are supposed to say different things but I can't help but compare them to each other. I'm still an amateur and lacking a lot I need to learn and I know it might not be that serious. I'm not writing them for anyone but myself, and I think that's important because if you envision readers and the like the work suffers so I make it a rule to just write what I like. Sometimes I have trouble writing though and it's really worrying me.
This is all really silly sounding I know, it's not a life or death thing. I'm not losing my passion though it's just, I find it's gotten more difficult for me than it once was. I still love and want to write but it's just weird that it's coming out wrong sometimes, especially when I get excited about a book and then just want to move on to another. Am I addicted to opening up Novels or it is that I'm just searching for the right one to write? Has anybody else had this problem?
Do you think it's wrong to drop a lot of works and just pick up another until you find the right one? Or is that being lazy and impatient? That was a lot of rambling in retrospect. I'm mostly just venting and as a dork, I need to write my thoughts out or they stay on my brain.
What do you guys think I should do? Should I just work on the ones I've been working on, or should I just drop the ones I don't feel I can finish and look for another. Or do you think that's an endless cycle? I know I've got to figure it out soon, since writers are supposed to write or other stuff gets in the way. Course that sounds weird since I'm still an amateur but I know where I'm at, I just want to learn all I can and dream of writing many stories that hopefully one day I can be glad to see in a thrift store free box some day haha. Yeah, ok I've rambled enough. You can ignore me if I sound weird. XD